Monthly Archives: February 2014

Healing

Good morning☕️☕️almost sick from past 15 days drinking unknowingly im purified water with 100 fever almost daily,bad bronchitis,and headache.My both kids having their final exams with my husband travelling due to his job. Too much on my hands,as I newly started recognising my writing skills too,must say my creativity should have waited until my mothers responsibility were over

Positively taming bipolar

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This is my own experience of positively taming bipolar!! At the age of seven my mom was told by my paediatric I need to see a counsellor,but due to myths, silent social stigma and not too much of acceptance of the newly found mental Illnesses,my family was skeptical in doing so.We lived in India, City Mumbai and it was in the 80’s.I was a very different and difficult child to deal with,a tom boy who was not interested in studies,but a voracious reader of mills and boons,James Hardly chase,Archie comics,asterix,chacha chowdhary,supandi,tintin,Richie rich.Later my liking to reading made me read Sidney Sheldon books,Jeffrey archer,Mario Puzo and many more.Music was one on my likes too.From childhood my parents and siblings taught me to be strong and a fighter as I was the youngest and very sensitive.10 years younger than my sister and 7 years younger to my brother.Our home conditions itself taught us to be survivors.Thanks to my amazing papa who had a reading habit and we three kids got attracted to books.Thanks to my mummy who always believed in doing good.

I got in love with the man of my dreams.Tall dark and handsome character which existed in my imagination.Words fall short to explain my husband as he is the best.We borne a girl child and a boy.Today we are proud parents and my family is complete.Yes more than I got tortured I was the tormentor though unknowingly.I always for some time after my medications stopped, asked my GOD why me?I saw my pain and my 37 years slipping away,saw my admissions to rehabs,my bloated self,my scars,my pain(all of it as ladies face even pms).Had blocked my mind to feel sorry for my husbands and kids sufferings as they lived with me.My whole family’s sacrifices and pain.My doctor who I second to GOD always.Thanks to my fathers science who’s no more,my brother and sisters numerology,my mom and sister in laws constant positivity and guidance,the amazing support of my husband and inlaws,my kids who love me today,loads of good relatives,old classmates,best friends and last but not the least my 2 beauties,my four legged babies Feedo and fluffy.

Having dealt with 37 years of unwanted negativity which if controlled on time could have been prevented,today this year started of with my blog on 6th jan and very soon lot on my mind.I search for solace in my mind as I know sky ain’t the limit the mind is.Have faith and I’m sure of my love and support.Learnt to tame my own bipolar knowing and challenging my dirty mind to come out.Its tamed so well by my good self,my reading knowledge,my family’s love and support and my survivor instincts that I have the urge to reach many alike me.I am blessed forever and my wish is that you stay blessed!!

Past~Perfect

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Past existed gone today
Rage insanity worries and pain
In control today
If tomorrow comes
Bright is our future

Untrustworthy were she and me
Gaining trust is not our worry
Fearless are we
Lived by flames
Diplomaed by aromas

Minds weak pure heart are we
Strengths desires courage positivity we share
Indebted and in love are we
Proud of our off springs
Rooted us the perfect plant

Regrets complains hurt and pain
All forgotten showering our seeds
Blessed are we with unity
We are theirs they our ours
Past was future is

Vampires pain

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PMS the scariest abbreviation for all women on this earth.Premenstrual syndrome or premenstrual tension is a complex of physical and emotional changes,including depression,irritability,appetite change,water retention,bloating,breast soreness,and changes in muscular coordination.One or more of which may be experienced in the several days before the onset of menstrual flow.Four out of five female friends or ladies I know agree with me on the above mentioned.For some ladies the dates are fixed so they are mentally and physically prepared for the upcoming storm ever month.For some there’s a delay in the date due to hereditary factors,or if married worried wether they played safe,or if already on heavy medications.I am sure every man who’s an adult is aware of lady’s saying “it’s just that time of the month”!!

PMS is worst suffered when women have any type of mental illness,and if they are the delayed types it’s a bonus.Not all bonuses fetch gain.Delayed menstrual cycle fetches misery,helplessness,rage and makes one an attention seeker due to the already existing mental illness.One like this in my imagination seems to me like a vampire looking for her prey with no intentions of fulfilling her own blood hunger,as she’s already a self inflicted vampire. A good seductive actress who ruthlessly exploits,ruins and degrades the men.She seems and looks on the outer so in control of the situation and plays her role so well that all men are in love with her acting.No man ever must have imagined the pain inside her as she looks at all of them as her prey.Her rage is then her own blame game.Her moves in search of her prey with good intentions for asking for pity for her pain all go in vane.She forgets in her pain the destruction she causes as her being a vampire.Then she bleeds and relieves her own pain,once again knowing her strengths and her weaknesses.

There are a lot of methods of preventing Menstrual pains.Im sure many have already done it and are happier.Many still planning,many who also are dealing with menopause.My personal opinion on this subject is let nature play it’s role.I am 38 and have not so good control over it myself but i am learning to take control.

It Seeks You

Thank you for sharing this awesome words!!

Waking The Infinite

Embodying all that you are is not about sucking it up.

Sucking it up has been the source of so many problems, delaying that moment as what you seek is now known to be……seeking you.

If you must, curse the past, but do so in the knowledge that it was your past that you now run from, fleeing like horses from a burning barn.  You do not free yourself from that vast tarpit by continuing to remain there, wrestling your demons.

Yes, you give it all up and consider there is a better way.  As you seek this, you begin to see how it is seeking you….to be the best and happiest that you can be.  If not, then something is amiss.  Just ask yourself why and what.  This part seeking you knows.

Giving it up, you give up your feelings of limit, desire for more hurt, retaliation that keeps…

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Hello and greetings to all my followers on blog and email.As you all well aware I have my own story to tell!!! I started my wordpress journey on 5th of jan 2014 and I don’t like expiry dates.I respect and appreciate my readers time and their efforts in motivating my cause by liking,sharing and commenting on my post.You all are my motivation.i would love to know your choice on my subject.With my hearts feeling and my minds creativity I would try to keep up to your expectations.

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