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Human pain

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Being a bipolar always wondered bleeding pain is greater or the unseen pain.We have a personality disorder but only rage gets the devil out in us,our good one inside puts the fortunate ones in a dilemma!! Socially we are loud though behave our selfs until triggered.The trigger not necessarily be a logical one.That one trigger is enough for all are past good deeds forgotten,the bad intensity is so high,I really don’t blame them.Our pain is then given different names like being narcissist, addicted,vindictive,egoistic,moody,self-centred,crazy,insane,attention seeker,etc etc.Pain is pain,and we feel it too,while in rage it’s unattended,but the after effects are a torture.A severe throbbing headache and palpitation.Then with medication comes the pain of self pity,obesity,fear,anxiety,feeling groggy and incompetence.For many of us it’s also getting deprived of love.

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Being a bipolar makes us different,a double me that we are.Our heart cries out to people who we see suffering.We emphasise with their pain as it is very visible and looks red.Be it a small scratch,a bleeding wound,an operation,diabetes,cholesterol,cancer,tumour,surgery of all types etc etc.I have been from donkey’s years in a thought process about am I supposed to feel sad for myself or sad for the person I see suffering physically.Medications are a part and parcel of both pains.Makes me sad to see people having to shut their taste buds,follow the do’s and Don’t in their diets.Never till today came to a conclusion.Feared always if I do so I’ll be known as someone who’s flattering her illness.

The above words are totally my thoughts.After reading this post, I would definitely appreciate any positive comments from my viewers irrespective of your age ( above 18) or your illness or the totally blessed ones who are fortunate and have never experienced any pain.

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Destinations

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Some for pleasure
Others for earning bread
Some in denims others in suits
Some discussing experiences
Others gossiping neighbours

Some sipping coffee
Others window shopping
Some tackling kids queries
Others wondering when they grew
Some alone others on a phone

Some In fear others looking for a gear
Some staring others deep in thoughts
Some with books others with apples
Some leaving sweat others reaching heights
Some in arrivals others in departures

Some regulars others first time
Some bold and beautiful
Others not so fortunate
Some in a fight with others
Others fighting their own mind

The clouds weigh no caste or creed
Jitters with the rags and rich
We hope the pilot has earned his degree
Somehow pass our time with prayers at the back of our mind
There we land and start to explore the already planned